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Margaret Skidmore posted a symbolic gesture
Thursday, January 26, 2023
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Hey Good lookin, today is our son's birthday. He turned 45 today, can you believe it? I know I can't because time has just slammed the door in our face. I know you are all around us all the time because I feel you near to me and I'm always talking to you, are you listening???? My life has changed so drastically that I know I'm not the same since you left and by the way, you left me behind. The one that is left behind (ME) endures and experiences so much tragedy and uncertainty. I miss you so much it brings tears that are uncontrollable and quite heart wrenching. You are always on my mind and forever in my heart. My prayers are never ending for you. There is a hole in my heart that misses you. I have lost my past and have no future to look forward to since you left. Every day for me has no meaning, I used to look forward to kissing you out the door when you left for work telling you to please drive careful and call me when you get to work safely, which you always did. Then you called when you were leaving for lunch and called when you got back to tell me where you ate. I so miss our phone calls and how me and the girls would wait by the driveway when you came home Anika, always was so excited to see you drive up and if I held her back, she would cry like a baby just to get to you, so excited to see you. To this day, she still goes up to the gate and looks for you, almost like she knows the time you should be coming home. I know they both still look for you and constantly are looking at your pictures I have on the table. Almost as if they sense you and tilt their heads as if you are speaking to them. They say dogs can hear the spirits; I know our girls hear you, Paul, so don't stop talking to them. We love you dearly Paul and we will never let you go, and one day, me and the girls will be reunited with you. Anika will be so excited to see you and she will cry like a baby at the sight of you while Sloan will run to you for your hugs and a belly rub. I get so excited just thinking about that day when we can all be together, and I can hold your hand and we walk the rest of the journey together, and I'll never let your hand go, where you go, I go. I pray our son has a wonderful birthday and takes a minute to reflect on his life where he has been and where he is going. Once again, time is the main factor in our lives; time can be our greatest friend and can also be our worst enemy, as time does not stand still. I pray that our son capitalizes on every second of his life and through his journey he finds the kind of love we have that lasts a lifetime, here on earth and in heaven. I love you Paul and will always and forever keep you close to my heart and forever you will live in my soul. I miss us and look forward to being with you soon. I'll Love you forever -n- always, your loving wife, Margaret many hugs and kisses from me to you always.
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Margaret skidmore posted a condolence
Thursday, January 19, 2023
Hey Good Lookin, why is it every time I open up your obituary the tears just stream down my face? I will never accept that you are gone, my heart hurts so much with you being gone I just can't accept it. I am so emotionally distraught with your loss and so angry that you are not here with me. My love for you is a lifetime of togetherness, emotions, experiences, laughter, companionship, and now I'm left behind with nothing to hold on to, except pictures and memories of you and me. I don't want to be the person who is left behind for years, alone and emptiness in my heart for you and our love of one another. Life is not fair, and life is shared with the one you love with all your heart and soul. Our life together was a lifetime for us, for all that we shared and lived through one another and to be taken away just like that? My life with you is all I've ever known and all I've ever loved is my life with you, Paul. My tears for you are very real and the pain in my heart is felt every day. I listen to your voice messages every day just so I can remember your voice and it makes me feel as if you are still here with me. I find myself wanting to pick up the phone to call you after listening to your message. Paul, I love you so much and miss you so much and can't stand that you are not here, just doesn't seem possible. I'm still standing at the crossroads of my life not knowing which way to go or what to do. There will never be another for me as you are my one true love, my soulmate, the love of my life, thank you for your love Paul. I love you so much and miss you. Love you forever-n- always, your loving wife, Margaret. Many many hugs and kisses being sent to you from me. Please wait for me and never forget us and the love I have for you. Love you Paul.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Sunday, January 15, 2023
Hey Good Lookin every time I login into this site, it brings tears and I find myself just hating life without you Paul and remembering how you left me. Time for me is my worst enemy because I'm still here and you are in Heaven. Ann was here for a visit and for a split second life felt good having her here but knowing it was a short visit and after she left my life just seemed to disintegrate. For that short time Ann was here life seemed to be normal and I expected to see you walk in the room. Your loss to me is so unbearable and so difficult at times to function a daily life, I just don't know how people pickup the pieces and move on and start a new life????? To me you are the love of my life, the beat of my heart and my soul mate, a lifetime of love and companionship and now I'm lost without you. I am still so pissed off and angry that you are not here with me, we had so much still to do and live for and now I'm at the crossroads of my life and I just don't want to make any more memories without you. I Miss you Paul and love you dearly. You are always in my heart and live in my soul. I Love you forever -n- always, your loving wife, Margaret many many hugs and kisses coming to you with lots of love. Looking forward to that day God brings me home and I can be with you again. Love you Paul and miss you so much.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 3, 2023
Hey Good Lookin, today is a very emotional day for me, being a new year 2023 and a year of uncertainty and loneliness. I get on my knees at night praying that there is a heaven, no one has ever seen it or talked about being there and I continue to pray there is a heaven. I pray there is a heaven because you are there and we talked about heaven and hell and I pray you are in heaven because every day I'm living in hell. A hell with no end to peace because there is no future left for me since God took you. Each day is filled with regret and wishes that I could change the past but I have to live with God's plan for us. Paul you are the very best of me and without you I can't see a future of happiness without you in my life. Hell is living a life without love, without happiness, without your soulmate, without a future, that is what hell is when you lose the love of your life, your soulmate, your purpose in this world. I continue to do all that I can to be worthy to God so I can be reunited with you Paul and see the heaven that all is talked about but never seen. I want to be there with you and will live a life worthy of being invited there. What else is there for us, but to be the best we can be and pray we end up in the grace of God. Paul, another year I have to live without you and continue to keep you in my prayers and hope for the best for us all. I love you dearly Paul and hold you close to my heart and you continue to live in my soul. Love you forever n always, your loving wife, Margaret Many hugs and kisses being sent to you.
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Margaret skidmore posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 3, 2023
Hey Good lookin, it's 2023 and heart wrenching to think of this year without you with me. I walk the yard with the girls thinking of you and wishing you were with us. Each day I die a little more than the day before thinking of that moment in my life that God decided to take you. I know you are in heaven, but I just can't accept that you are not here. If silence is supposed to be golden, what is Loneliness????? Worse than death? because I've been left behind to do what? Continue to live, how is that possible without you here? I know you and I talked numerous times about if one of us died what to do, but never in a million years did I ever think it would happen? I know it does happen, but to other people, not us. I have died inside and feel nothing, numb to my surroundings. You brought life into me and showered me with so much love that I believed I was in heaven, because this feeling you gave me was so incredible that I felt invincible with you by my side. Our love for each other is incredible and comes from a lifetime of experiences. Saying I miss you just doesn't convey the full depth of my sadness and heart ache of you not being here with me to tell you about my day and to listen to your day. I am so angry that at times I just scream at God and say I want answers as to WHY you chose to take my husband away from me. I deserve answers and you are the only one who can give them to me. Still waiting for the answer but I will continue to ask until I'm faced to face with him, and I will have my answer. My husband is an awesome man who loves gently, helps others in need, continues to work hard and deliver exceptional work for his clients because he cares and doesn't sugar coat but tells the truth. Paul, you are the most thoughtful, kind, considerate, loving man that I am so proud and honored to be married to. I'll love you until the end of time and until we are together again to pick up where we left off, holding hands and walking together. You are the love of my life; my soulmate and I can't wait to be with you again. Until that happens, I just continue to go through life in a fog no emotions just day to day bullshit and get my affairs in order, so no one has to wonder what to do with our life's accumulations. All taken care of so not to burden anyone with handling our affairs, something I had to do for both of us. Life is never an easy process, try dying and taking care of what's left? That is the realty of leaving this life. I love you Paul, miss you beyond words, and look forward to being with you when God thinks it my time. Forever n always your loving wife, Margaret. I'll love you for all eternity. Love you always. so many hugs and kisses being sent to you from me. I will always Love you Paul and I hold you so tight in my heart and soul. Please hear my heart talking to you. I Love you, Paul.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, January 1, 2023
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Hey Good Lookin, it's December 31, 2022 and it's 11:34pm and almost New Years and I'm wishing you were here with me. I know you are in heaven looking down at me and I'm here looking up at you wishing I could see you but sending you kisses and sneaking in a hug. Time is flying by us so fast we tend to lose what's important and what our priority to us is and for me it's all our memories we had together and our life and the many sacrifices we had to make to achieve our goals only to end up realizing after all our hard work, what we thought was important wasn't. The amount of time we spend working hard and focusing on our goals, we wasted the most important commodity life has to offer, we wasted precious time, and chasing goals when we should have focused on life and living our life and sharing our dreams not goals holding hands and remembering the love in our hearts and why we love each other. Time once again can be our most precious gift and our worst enemy. Unfortunately, for Paul and I, we chose to work hard and have a good life but in doing this, we lost ourselves in building a future for our kids, only to find the love that brought us together but not enough time to enjoy each other before God decided he needed you. What about me? I need you Paul I need to feel you here with me, I need you all of you. I'm thankful that Time does not stand still because I realize it's only a matter of time that we will be together again holding each others hand only this time, forever n always. I'll never let you go and I look forward to holding you close to me and telling you how much I missed you and how I dearly love you Paul. I don't pretend that life is easy for me because it's been a night mare ever since I lost you Paul. I not only lost you Paul, I also lost me. Without you there is no me. We were as one and now I don't know who I am or what my purpose in life is anymore. Every day has been a routine same day every day. All the joy and all the happiness left with you Paul and as soulmates, no one could ever take your place. You are the beat of my heart and the breath I breathe. Well Paul, it's Midnight and Happy New Year to the Love of my Life. 2023 I hate to see it here because you are not with me but just know no matter where I am or where I go you will always be with me in my heart and in my soul. I love you Paul and Miss you so much. Hugs and kisses to the love of my life and the love of my world. Looking forward to being with you when the time is right. Again, TIME connects us all together. Love you forever n always, your LOVING WIFE, MARGARET forever and always kisses coming to you.
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Margaret skidmore posted a condolence
Thursday, December 29, 2022
Hey Good lookin, every time I pull up this page to talk to you, I see your picture and remember that morning when we had breakfast together. I always liked taking your picture to capture that moment in time. You were looking off in another direction and I wondered what you were thinking. I was worried that you had not been feeling well but you wanted to go for breakfast that christmas eve morning. It constantly tears my heart up knowing that would be our last time together and I was not wise enough to know there was something else going on with you, but you didn't let me in to tell me. I wish I could have gone with you on this journey, but you left me behind and we talked about neither one of us wanted to be left behind. Having to deal with the outcome alone is more than one person should ever have to endure, and believe me Paul, it has broken me knowing you and I will not be together forever and always. I pray each day since you left me that we will be together when it's my time to go and I so look forward to that day to be with you once again, only this time forever and always. I love you Paul and miss you every day and my heart cries for you. I'll never let you go and I look forward to that day we can be together once again. I love and miss you Paul. Love you forever and always, your loving wife, Margaret. Many hugs and kisses from me to you.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Monday, December 26, 2022
Hey Good Lookin, the love of my life. Well today is December 26, 2022 and the loneliness definitely is being felt because you are not here. Every day seems harder than the day before and I wonder if you know up there in heaven how much I miss you and how lonely my life is without you? I find myself always looking for a phone call from you and sometimes I catch myself wondering why I haven't heard from you. Crazy, but those feeling never go away. Also, my coffee intake has increased because I'm always calling you on your way home to see if you want coffee so I just make me a cup thinking we are having coffee together. At night, after I say my prayers and hold you close, the tears just fall because of the pain I'm feeling in my heart for you and for us. I know my world has stopped making memories because I don't want anymore memories without you. The next memory will be played out in Heaven when you and I take each others hand and you say to me; what took you so long. Trust me, the day you left and went to heaven, I begged the good lord to let me go with you because I didn't want to be left behind without you but as you can see, I'm still here, not knowing why but promise to be the very best person I can be so when it's my time to go home, God will let me in to be with you. To me, that will be the greatest gift I could ever imagine, being with you for all eternity. Our love was heaven sent the day I found you and you will always be the only man for me. Until we are together again, I hold you close to my heart and forever you live in my soul. You see, a part of me lives in your soul and a part of me is with you in heaven just as you live in my soul. I miss you so much Paul and love you dearly. I will always honor you and cherish all those memories we have made and remember what it was like to always hold your hand and look forward to that day and moment when I can once again hold your hand. You are the best that has ever happened to me and I am forever grateful that you loved me. Thinking of you always and sending you so much love, hugs and many kisses. Paul, you are not alone and will always be kept alive in my life until we are together again. Love you so much, forever -n- always, your loving wife, Margaret. You are the greatest gift from God the Almighty and I will always treasure you. Thank you for loving me so much, 51 years later and my love for you has only gotten stronger and my appreciation of all that you do makes my heart smile. Please wait for me, and only God knows when I can come home, and when that time comes, I'll be more than ready to be with you. Love you always, Paul. Hugs and kisses from your loving wife, Margaret. Please don't forget Sloane and Anika, I know they miss you so much and on Christmas day, I took them for a ride in your truck, they were so happy but kept looking for you as if they knew but still looked for you.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Sunday, December 25, 2022
Hey Good Lookin, today is Christmas but I'm not feeling it, since you have been gone. Holidays will never be celebrated the same for me. You always made every holiday special and exciting and worth the excitement with you, so special. I found the perfect Christmas card for you, and yes, it did take me a little longer to find it but it's perfect for you. Here goes: I love you heart and soul. Paul, with every year, I'm more grateful to have your sweet love in my life. You let me know in so many ways that I can depend on you - in good times and bad, and sometimes in ways I never knew I'd need to. I've seen strengths I didn't know you had, and they've made me respect and appreciate you even more. Paul, As sweet as our first Christmases were, the guy I'm in love with now makes me even more happy and proud than I could have ever dreamed. I feel so very blessed and extremely happy to be sharing our life and our journey with you by my side. No matter what happens in our lives, you will always live in my heart and soul and will always be part of my life until we are united. You are my soul mate, the love of my life, my whole world and with every breath I take, and with every beat of my heart, it's because of you and your generous love you have given me and always took care of us that I am able to be. Every day for me, since you have left me, has been a tremendous struggle and a frightening life without you by my side. I continue to look forward to the day I can be reunited with you in heaven and hold your hand and never let us go. Always in my heart and forever and always in my soul. I love you Paul so much and sending you so many hugs and lots of kisses. Love you forever -n- always, your loving wife, Margaret. I miss you Paul and Merry Christmas to you in Heaven. Love you so much.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Saturday, December 24, 2022
Hey Good lookin, today is a very very emotional day for me and it's this time last year that you left. This is an overwhelming, sad day for me because you left me. I just can't put into words the stress I'm feeling, the sadness I'm enduring, the hate I'm feeling, not towards anyone but feeling it in my heart and let's not forget ANGER I'm enraged with. Paul you are my world and without you I'm lost, completely lost. Wondering what direction I need to be going and never taking that first step to go anywhere. I just won't let myself accept that you are not here with me. I traced our journey that very morning, getting up, making you coffee only for you to say let's go out for breakfast. I asked you do you feel better and you said yes so we went to breakfast at Village Inn. I even took your picture, like I like to do so many times when we are out, never realizing this was it. We went shopping at Walmart for the grandsons stocking stuffers and then home. It was at that time you said you were not feeling good. You took a shower and I told you, you better not die on me, of course joking like we always did, and I said if you do, I want to go with you, please don't leave me behind, let's go together like the movie notebook. You just laughed at me. Then you said take me to the hospital, and I was in overdrive just rushing to get you to the hospital never realizing that less than a minute from the house you took you last breath. As I type this, the tears are streaming down my face and I just can't get a grip on life. Paul you have a heart of gold, always helping people, your clients always going the extra mile for them, never wanting to let them or Ed down, taking their phone calls all hours of the night to assure your clients you got everything handled. Your smile and the twinkle in your eyes always captured my heart. Last Christmas I was going to surprise you with a check to go and purchase your boat, the one you always wanted. Only, the joke is on me because I didn't get a chance to tell you let alone give you the check for the boat. I hate myself for so many reasons because I failed you Paul, I couldn't save you and I tried and for that, I'll never be able to forgive myself. I live that moment in time every day and I hate myself for losing you, Paul. Paul, my eternal love is devoted to you and although I can't be with you now and you can't be with me, I keep praying every night to God and all those supreme beings that we will be together for all eternity. I have no idea what's in store for me, but whatever it is I promise to do good things while I'm here so I can have my place reserved next to you in Heaven. I believe, because that's all I have to hold on to until we are together. I love you so much Paul and you are my soul mate for all 51 years together and I will always continue to celebrate you in this life until we can be together. I miss you so much and love you dearly. Love forever -n- always, your loving wife for all eternity, Margaret Hugs and kisses and more hugs and kisses. Until we are together I hold you close to my heart.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Thursday, December 22, 2022
Hey Good lookin, just thinking back to 2021 on this day you were home sick. You had come home from work throwing up and I made sure you were getting enough rest and feeding you soup. Who would have thought, not me, that it was more serious than you led me to believe. At least I still had you with me and was doing the best to take great care of you. Every day for me is torture and I still can't bring myself to believe you are not here, I keep thinking it's a mistake and I'll wake up and you will be here. I just won't accept that you are gone. It's not possible, you have always been here for us, you were the strong one who took care of us, you were so giving of yourself to me and to our kids. You led this family and took such great care of us all and now; I am so lost without you. My heart has shattered in so many pieces and all the joy and love and feeling shattered when you left, never to be put back together again, not until we are together again. I so believe your soul is in heaven and God has made you whole again and I have to believe I will be with you again for all eternity. The thought of being with you again and holding you is what keeps me going from day to day; that you are my light at the end of this dreadful loss. You are always on my mind, thinking of you and missing you so much. As the days get closer to when you left, I'm feeling your loss in the pit of my stomach, and I don't know how to keep going. You were my inspiration, you were my hero in life, and you are the very best of what God has created and called Man. How lucky I was to have met and married you and blessed to have been with such an amazing man for all our life together. You have taught me so much about love and honor and you were always there holding my hand. I just can't let you go not today or tomorrow, and I pray every night that you are free from pain and with your family and waiting for me when God decides I can come home to be with you. After spending what seemed like a lifetime with you now, I find myself at a crossroad in my life and future, not knowing what direction to go in and ultimately, I feel stuck because I don't want to take another step-in life without you with me. Life has become a lonely place for me without you here. Even our Shepards walk up to your picture and stare at it like I do, but they don't cry like I do, but they both stare at your picture. They even lay down on their beds facing your picture as if you and they are engaged in a conversation or you're talking to them because I see their heads turn left to right as if you said something to them and they look at you like they always did. Funny how they have a certain perception of feeling you close to them, kind of like they see you or sense you. Sometimes they bark at your picture like they are trying to get your attention. They definitely are smart girls, and they love and miss you, Paul. I feel their pain and their loss every day. They still look for you at the gate, wondering why you haven't come home yet to throw the Frisbee to them. They know, I see the pain in their eyes, and when I cry holding your picture, they come up to me and Anika barks at me and Sloan howls like a wolf as they sit in front of me. They know the loss I'm feeling, and that loss will never go away until we are together again. We love you and miss you, Paul. Love you forever -n- always, your loving wife, Margaret, and your girls, Sloane and Anika. Many many hugs and kisses from us to you. WE LOVE YOU PAUL, I know you can hear us, and I know God hears us.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Tuesday, December 13, 2022
Happy 47th Anniversary to the Love of My Life. We have been together for 51 years, now that is a long time to be loving one person but being with you Paul was just so magical and our life together was meant to be, the time together just wasn't long enough. The saddest day of my entire life was the day God called you home. You are the BEST part of ME Paul and I thank you for all your love, compassion, devotion, understanding and all the happiness you brought in our lives. This time last year we were together and once again you gave me an incredible anniversary card. Your cards always touched my heart, and you always knew when you picked out a card for me it was picked with so much love and admiration. Today, after 47 years, I will not be receiving one of your memorable cards. Paul, for me, life stopped when you left me, and for me, there is no going forward, no more memories to make, no more laughter or tears of joy, only sadness and heartbreak. Our whole life revolved around each other and now I am lost without you. If others read this, unless they have loved as deeply as I have loved you and spent almost my entire life with you, they can't possibly imagine the depth of my pain, loneliness, and heartbreak having to go through what's left of my life without you in it. The joy, the smiles, the twinkle in your eyes will never again be seen or felt again or the many times we held hands in the car or just walking around the yard or shopping. I'll never let you go; I hold you so close to my heart, and I feel you in my soul. I am so angry that God took you from me at such an early age without warning, no goodbyes' no nothing, it was that quick and I find myself questioning my faith and still asking WHY? Time can be our friend, but Time can also be our worst enemy, and for me, Time became my worst enemy. I'll always love you Paul and look forward to the day I can hold your hand and look into your eyes and tell you how much I loved you and missed you and how happy I am to be with you and to walk this new journey with you. No place I would rather be than to be right there next to you for all eternity. I did get you an anniversary card and I will read it to you, and I will place it next to your picture, although it won't quite be the same without one of your amazing cards and you reminding me it only took you a second to recognize the perfect card for me. You always did have an eye for amazing cards that expressed your love and devotion for me. I miss you Paul and will always keep you alive in my life, until we meet again, I'll love you forever -n- always. I'll Love you always, your wife, Margaret. hugs and kisses from my heart to yours xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Monday, November 28, 2022
Hey good lookin, you have been on my mind since the day you left me. I lost everything I loved, I lost you and I lost myself. I know my life will never be the same and I hate it. You were always the sunshine in my life, you were always there for me, you gave me confidence, you supported me, you picked me up when I was down, and your love never waivered for me. You were my inspiration to be a better person and you believed in me. I feel you all around me and I just want to hold you close to me and never let you go. Our anniversary is right around the corner and thinking back to last year where I took you to Black Rock for our anniversary and the waitress brought us to the back room and we were the only ones there in that room. You asked me if I planned us getting the whole room to our selves and I said no but glad we had this room for ourselves. I remember telling the waitress this was our anniversary and when she found out how many years we were together she said we didn't look like we were married that many years. I told her those years were the best years of my life and we planned on many more. Today, I'm left alone without you but will always honor you and our time together. I don't know how to go forward without you here, Paul. I miss you more than words could ever express and the emotion inside of me is so over whelming it consumes me and brings me to my knees in pain. I remember the first time I met you and how easy it was to fall in love with you. You gave me so much love and I adored you. I don't know how to move on and I know that is what you would want for me but I just can't , it hurts so much. I knew after meeting you that you were sent from heaven above and you rescued me and loved me for me. You are an amazing man, amazing husband and father and every day with you I fell deeper and deeper in love with you over and over. You gave me strength when I was weak. You are my soulmate and the love you gave me will last a lifetime. I will make you so proud, and I know you will always be with me and I will never be alone because you are in my heart. I love you Paul forever -n- always you are the love of my life. Please wait for me, and never forget us and I keep us in my prayers every night. I know I will see you again and I will spend eternity with you. I miss you Paul so much. Lots of Hugs and kisses from me to you; love, your wife, Margaret..
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Thursday, November 24, 2022
Happy Thanksgiving Paul. Not really because you are not here with me. Today marks 11 months that you left and each day feels like the first day. All the pain, all the heartache, all the loneliness, haunts me every day, morning, noon, and especially at 4:00pm when you would arrive home from work. Me and the girls still look towards the gate still expecting to see you drive up. Anika still runs to the gate and looks down the driveway for your vehicle. All I have left is your voice messages, which I constantly listen to just to hear your voice and somehow it feels like you are still here with me. I feel so much love in your voice yet you are not here. Today is suppose to be a day of thanks, yet it's so hard for me to be thankful because God took you way too soon from me. We had so many plans and I miss you so much now I hold close to my heart all our memories and I find myself gazing into your pictures, remembering when they were taken and the events surrounding them. You made our house a home, you were the rock of this family, you are my best friend and most importantly, the love of my life and without you I have lost myself. You kept me grounded and you were always at my side. I loved our life together and now I feel so alone and empty inside. Time is our greatest gift and our worst enemy if we don't utilize it with the one we love. For it only takes a split second to lose the love of our life, and I know this first hand because that's how much time it took to take you from me, a split second leaving me in total shock and disbelief. 11 months later I still feel the same way, I just can't accept you are not here with me to enjoy the holidays. Now, for me, the enjoyment has disappeared out of my life, and the joy I once knew with you, Paul has gone. I see pictures of us happy but I can't feel those feelings anymore, and my days are now are filled with numbness and life for me has just become a routine. I look forward to the day we can be together and I pray to God every night that your soul is in heaven and you are reunited with your parents and brother. I look forward to the day that I see you standing there waiting for me with your hand extended and my hand in yours and never to be parted again. That is my place, to be with you again for all eternity. If ever God created a perfect man, it was YOU Paul, you are so perfect to me. I'll love you for all eternity and honor you for all you have given of yourself to this family and to me and always be proud you are my husband. When you left, you left with my heart and soul and I would have gladly given my life for you because you are a far better person than I could ever have hoped to be. I'm Thankful for you Paul, thankful for you loving us, thankful for all the love you brought into our lives, thankful, honored, and proud to be your wife, and thankful for all the sacrifices you've made for our kids to help them achieve their goals in life. You are the oak that kept this family together. Unfortunately, now you are no longer here, this family has gone separate ways and if life has anything to teach us, it's that life and time doesn't last forever and we need to appreciate what time we have left with those we love. Trust me, I know this firsthand, I lost the love of my life and I feel the pain every day and it is excruciating beyond belief almost unbearable. No one can truly understand the effect it has on a person when they lose a loved one, especially a husband. It destroys you from the inside and there is never any healing, and time is not our friend. Thank you Paul for loving me and always being there for me and for us. I'll love you for all eternity and look forward to us being together, please wait for me, I'll be looking for you. I thank your mother and Bob for raising an awesome man and thankful for meeting you, falling in love with you and thankful you asked me to marry you. I love you Paul and miss you so much. Love you forever -n- always, your loving wife, Margaret lots of hugs and kisses xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Saturday, November 19, 2022
Hey good looking, just sitting here crying because the emptiness inside of me is more than I can handle, now that you are gone. I relive that day over and over again trying to figure out what happened and why I didn't notice that you were in awful pain???? You never let on to me that you were in grave danger with your health and you never once let me know. There are days that I hate myself for not paying closer attention to you and so many what ifs. I would have given my life for you, I would have done anything for you. My love for you is never ending. Paul, I miss you so much and the pain never goes away. Thanksgiving is next week and you are not here with me. I'll be spending it by myself, not like last year where we were with our kids. Since you have been gone, life has come full circle and I now see things in a better light, especially when it comes to family. Like you always said, it's just you and I and now that you are not with me, life is tough. All my affairs are now in order so no more worrying about what lies ahead for me, I can actually feel a sigh of relief. You are always in my thoughts and in my heart every day and every night. Our anniversary comes after thanksgiving and this year will be really hard for me without you, but I will celebrate your life with all your accomplishments you have made to our family and thank you for always being the most incredible man and your love for me and our family always shined through. I look forward to the day that I can be with you and hold your hand and know we will never be apart again. Thank you Paul for all your Love and always believing in us. I will always honor you and I will always show how proud I am to be your wife, you are the love of my life and I can't wait to be with you. When God calls, I'll be ready to be with you. I love you Paul and miss you so much. Forever and always, your loving wife, Margaret. hugs and kisses xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox Until we meet again, I hold you close to my heart.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Sunday, November 6, 2022
Hey good looking today is November 6th and just got home from church. Today was a remembrance day of those we love and those who have left us. Your name, along with my tears and a shattered heart, was called out and it touched my heart in so many ways Paul. I will never accept that you, the love of my life, you Paul, are no longer here with me and with each day that comes and goes the tears never stop flowing and the pain I feel in my heart sometimes is more than I can handle. Life without you has no meaning and there is no future for me without you. My future is with you in heaven for all eternity, just you and i together forever n always. I would gladly have given my life for you, no matter what. Every where I turn in our home I'm looking for you, I feel you close to me in spirit, but I can't touch you. When you left me, I cried so hard and walked out in our front yard looked up into the sky and out of no where this huge eagle spread its wings and glided from the sky and all the while not flapping its wings glided over me looking at me as it flew by me and I watched it glide out of sight. I've never seen that eagle in our yard again. I had another experience, again in such a state of dispair, heart broken, yes crying alot, and out of no where, and I was out of state, and while I pulled over on the road, not one but two eagles flew over me and perched in the tree in front of me, not moving just looking at me. They stayed there long enough for me to take their pucture, which I will include. I know it was a sign from you Paul, that you will always be there for me in my time of sadness. Then again on my way back from the store, again thinking of you and feeling heart broken, and of course the tears and once again, this eagle, out of no where glides over my vehicle, all the while looking at me. When I need you so much, you always make your presence known to me and reassure me that you are with me. I love you so much and miss you so much more my heart aches for you. I keep you always close to me and keep you alive in my life. You are the light of my life and I'll never let you go and never let go of us. I'll love you forever -n- always with all my heart. Love you, your wife Margaret hugs and kisses and my heart.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Saturday, October 29, 2022
Happy Birthday to the Love of My Life. I will celebrate your birthday today, and remember all the wonderful years we had together. The girls and sang Happy Birthday to You, although they just kept looking at me like I was crazy. I miss you Paul, not just today, but every day and every night. I pray every night that your soul is in heaven, pain free and united with your mom and dad. Jealous because I can't be with you right now, but am looking forward to the day I wake up and we are together. I see the warmth in your eyes and the excitement in your smile as you look at me and say, what took you so long. Trust me, I'm saying the same thing, lord what are you waiting for??? Today, I would have taken you to breakfast for your birthday, got you an ice cream cake, kids and grandkids would have come over to celebrate this special day with us, then I would have taken you out for a nice dinner, just the two of us. I love you dearly Paul and miss you more than I could ever express but believe me the emptiness is deep in my heart and soul. I see the sun coming up and it is bright as ever. I'm always thinking of you in everything that I do. Anika still sleeps on your side of the bed and in the morning she looks for your socks. Every now and then I take them for a ride in your truck and you know how excited they get to ride in your truck. She still looks at me like why am I driving your vehicle, kinda funny with that look on her. We love you dearly Paul and wish you were here with us our lives will never be the same, now that you have left us. Although no cake for you in heaven, but you are pain free and much loved, please don't forget us and please wait for me. I love you with all my heart and soul and always keep you close to my heart. You are always in my prayers, i hope you can hear me talk to you. Happy Birthday Paul, the love of my life, sending YOU so much love, hugs, and kisses. Love you forever -n- always, your wife, Margaret. I Miss You Paul so much.
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Margaret skidmore posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 25, 2022
Hey Good Looking another day filled with guilt. Guilt I feel because I tried to save you and nothing I did was good enough to save you. My days are filled with so much regret and I just hate that you are not here to talk to. Life without you is no life at all for me. Each day I still look forward to your call that never comes. Your laundry that I used to pick up all over the floor because Anika would run through the house with your socks, just doesn't happen anymore. No more dry cleaning your clothes, because your closet has all your dry-cleaning clothes hung up still in plastic from the cleaners. What the hell happened???? I keep asking myself and looking at your picture I took while we had breakfast together and then life ended for us. Not only did you pass on, but you took my heart with you, and I hate every day without you. This Saturday is your birthday and like last year, we will be celebrating your birthday. I always made a big deal out of your birthday because I was so thankful you came into this world, and I got to spend 50 years with you, and still to me that still wasn't enough time to spend with you. You made each and every day exciting, going for rides and getting our cup of coffee for the ride. Going to the beach and walking in the sand and you helping me collect unusual shells, which I now have in a vase next to your picture I took at the beach where you were holding up a shell for me that you collected. I love you Paul so much and miss you constantly. I can't imagine if you were feeling so much pain that you didn't want me to know even as we ate breakfast? I'm having trouble accepting the fact that you knew something was wrong and didn't tell me so I could help you. Paul, we are in this together, I was right there with you every step of the way, why couldn't you tell me??? This is killing me from the inside out every day I think about that day. I pray to you every night and cry because you are not here for me to hold and kiss and just watch tv together. I miss everything about YOU, I miss US. I'll always honor you; I'll always cherish you and our life together and I always pray to GOD that we will be together one day soon. It's an incredible lonely feeling when a deeply loved one leaves and you are left alone trying to figure out which direction to go in or what to do next, when all that time there was us and we were together. Paul is my life and the love of my life, and I miss him so much and this should never have happened to him. I just can't believe this happened to him. I will always love this man, my husband, Paul. Hugs and kisses to you Paul, the life has gone out of me since you left. Now I have to wait for my time to be with you, then I'll be able to smile once again. We will be celebrating your birthday this Saturday just as if you were here with us. Because you are special, and you deserve all our love and attention. I love you and miss you, Paul. Love your wife forever -n- always, Margaret
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Saturday, October 22, 2022
There is one member of my family who actually gives a crap about what happens to me and she check in on me daily, even when she is out of town visiting her own daughters, my sister Ann. I have a good friend, Sherry and James who I've know for many years who keep in touch with me. Like I said family is over rated, and it was always just Paul and I. I look forward to him coming home from work and me having him all to myself. Now, I wish I did more said more and hugged him more. Paul, is my everything in this world, and having to go through each day with him not being here, quite difficult. I don't know how people get over their loss? For me we were together a life time and now time stands still for me, no more memories to make and my whole life has changed. But I look forward to the life after when there will never be an ending for us, and we will go on and on with no ending. My heart belongs to you and you alone no other. Love you Paul with all my heart and soul. hugs and kisses forever - n - always, your wife, Margaret
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Saturday, October 22, 2022
Hey Good Lookin, well it's Saturday night at 10:23pm and it has been one hell of a day for me. Thinking of you and feeling the loneliness consume me to the brink of non existence. The pain that fills my heart where there is no widow to escape only the darkness and yet I still look for you to call me or just appear to wake me up from this hell hole I'm in. Paul, family is quite over rated as you know, especially when I'm from a big family and all that we have done for many of my brothers and sisters and yet somehow they forget what we have done for them. Paul, you are all that matters to me and just knowing you left me the way you did without even telling me of your pain I'm left with nothing but guilt, sorrow, and a pain that cuts like a knife through my heart. I miss you so much and you and I have shared so much from the past, present, and now no future, without you there is no future for me. The girls still roam around the house looking for you and they get all excited when they see your truck in the garage hoping you are around to give them a ride, which I do. For them, it's just not the same, they look at me in the drivers seat as if to say where is dad??? and why are you driving his vehicle. I kid you not, it's that look they both give me, like I'm not supposed to be driving your truck, and I totally agree with them, you should be here driving your truck, not me. I just can't forget that dreadful day, it's embedded in my head and when I think of you that's what comes to mind. I have so many questions, but no answers which is driving me crazy because you have the answers I need to get through all this. I can't move forward, I'm stuck on that frightful day and remember everything that happened. You and I have shared a lifetime together, my whole like was with you and I had hoped we would spend eternity together, never did I ever think this would happen. You deserved to still be here, you already walked through fire and hell and you should still be here with me and the girls. We love you so much and you just can't imagine how much we miss you. Some days I don't know how I'm going to get through the day, the tears take control of me and I'm a total mess, yelling at God and telling him he had no right to take you, you are a great person, you have done so much for so many people, kind hearted, definitely a hard worker, try to please all your clients. You are the most important person in my life and without you life for me has no meaning, nothing to look forward to, just the day to day bull shit. I talk to you everyday and before I go to bed I pray to God hoping that you don't forget us and we will see you soon, please wait for us. This is not the kind of life I envisioned for us, with you being gone and me here without you. This is no kind of life for me, I hate you not being here with me. I still look for you, or make you a cup of coffee or open the gate for you when you leave for work just to get that one last kiss before you hit the highway(you know that gone in 60 seconds speed way) on your way to work. I always told you to please drive careful and call me when you get to work, which you did and I felt so much better knowing you were safe at work and not on the road. I loved how we cared for each other and how special you always made me feel, just knowing you were here for me was all I needed in life. YOU are the love of my life and I thank you for loving me, I will continue to love you, honor you, and cherish you until I no longer can take a breath and then I'll be with you through eternity, happiest day of my existence when we are together again, forever -n- always, love you Paul, love your wife, Margaret
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 12, 2022
Hello Good Lookin, time sure is flying by and I just can't keep up with my world. I'm sure where you are time stands still as it's not the same here. I'm wondering how we ended up where we are and looking around and seeing how much life has changed from when we first met. My whole life was filled with us and now I'm alone wondering where and what the hell happens next???? My daily life is the same from morning until morning, just can't make any memories because you are not here to share them with. Paul, the days are so rough for me, I force myself to getup and go, take care of our girls and the household but still have so much anger and hate in me for those above who took you and didn't even give you a second chance at life, like so many others who got that chance. I wish it were me that god decided to take whether it be heaven or hell, but not you. You, Paul, are so perfect, you care so much about people, kind hearted, hard working, loves your family, puts others before yourself, and always striving to do good for so many people, whether it be in the work field or at home, you always thought of others first. Life without you is so unbearable, so much on my shoulders to take care of, I sometimes think I just can't do it anymore but then I pick myself up and just get it done because that's what you would do and I never want to let you down. Everything that I am, everything that I have is all because of you and all your sacrifices in making sure our life was secured. Each night before I go to sleep, my prayers are always quite lengthy because I'm always asking God and all the supreme beings and creators to take away all your pain, suffering, and make sure your soul is filled with lots of love, happiness, and no pain. I pray that you are united with your parents, brother, aunt, uncles and in heaven there is so much love to fill your heart that I ask that you don't forget us and remember the depth of my love for you. I pray that I too will one day finally wake up and see you standing there with your hand extended to me to take. When that day finally comes, the angles will sing and the rainbows will light up the skies and I'll be home for all eternity with you, Paul. I love you so much and miss you every day and the tears are always there when I think of you which is quite often. You are the Love of My Life; MY Soul mate, my one and only love. Please wait for me and I'm doing all I can here on earth to make sure we can be together in the after life. I will always honor you all the days of my life and be proud that I am your wife for all eternity. A love like ours doesn't come around but once in a lifetime and when it does, you have to hold on for dear life and never let go. Our love is forever and I will cherish all our memories and rejoice when we are together again. I love you dearly, Paul, today, tomorrow, and forever -n- Always, your loving wife, Margaret. hugs and kisses from me to you. I miss you so much it hurts and listen to your voice messages often and I can feel the love in your voice for me and the tears never stop. Until I can see you again, I hold you close to my heart and forever in my soul. Love you Always
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Saturday, September 24, 2022
Hey Good Lookin, well every time I go to this page I get this lump in my throat and the tears just appear, quite hard to stop them from falling. Every time I go to this page, a part of me just dies, knowing this is the only way I can talk to you. I talk to you in my prayers and when in church I talk to you, but in the end, you are not here with me. Today marks 9 months you have been gone and the pain is so raw and runs so deep within me I realize there are no more beginnings for us only now just imagine what the end is. No more memories to be made for us, all our dreams are gone and any plans we had together will never be. We used to go for rides on the weekends, mostly to the beach but sometimes drive by our old stomping grounds, where we first met. I drove by there today thinking of you and remembering what it was like when we drove by our old homes and as we drove up and down the streets we would comment how the neighborhood looked so small and I lived at the corner and you down the street. The style of our homes have changed and the front yards are tiny with no trees and lots of cars in the yard. Once the neighborhood was filled with kids all getting together to play football in the street now not a single kid in the neighborhood. Times sure do change and we used to say to one another how the neighborhood doesn't look like how we grew up in it. It brought back a lot of memories and the tears rolled down my face because you were not with me. Paul, I miss you so much and to this day, I still can't believe you are not here. It just doesn't seem possible, I just can't seem to process it that you are not here. Every day a piece of me dies and I hate you are not here with me. I continue to keep you every day in my prayers and ask God to bless you and take away your pain, and shower you with much love and happiness in heaven and unite you with you mother, father, brother, and grandparents who dearly love you. Yes I am jealous because I am not there with you but I look forward to the day I can be with you, and just know I am not afraid, I'm looking forward to that day I can be with you. Being here without you is painful and empty and each day seems to just go by a little faster with no meaning. I miss you dearly, I love you with all my heart and soul, and you have always been the love of my life. The girls still look for you and once in a while I take them for a ride in your vehicle and how excited they are but I see they look for you and just don't know where you are. You will never be forgotten always alive in our lives. I still ask the girls every morning "What day is it" before I give them their greenie, just like you used to do every morning before you left for work, only I hold your picture in front of me when I say it. Anika and Sloan stares at the picture and I know they know who that picture is of, YOU. Paul, I know you can hear me and feel the pain we are in without you and we love you and miss you so much and will always keep you alive in our lives. So Much love and so deep in our hearts you will always live in us and we will always keep you in our prayers. I know you are in heaven and with your family, please don't forget about us, your family here on earth who are in deep pain and sorrow when you left. Please don't forget us and please wait for us because I believe we will be united once again and never to be separated again. We miss you Paul, we love you Paul, and think of you every day. Forever -n- always, your wife, Margaret who loves you more than life and look forward to being with you again. Many hugs and kisses from me to you. You are the love of my life and my soul mate. I love your Paul.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Monday, September 5, 2022
Hey good lookin today is Labor Day and once again, I'm dealing with the loneliness of you not being here with me. It doesn't matter how long it's been since you left us, it still feels like the first day. The pain never goes away and I find myself looking for you or waiting for you to call me. Unfortunately those moments remind me of my loss and the pain that never dulls. The loss of losing you plays a traumatic roll in my life and how difficult it is for me to move forward. I don't want to move forward without you in my life, I want us to make those memories together of our daily lives. This week we would have been getting ready for our vacation to Yellowstone National Park, something we both wanted to see. We were looking forward to just spending time together, enjoying the outdoors and wildlife and pampering each other. I miss you so much Paul and wish I could turn back the clock and make all this a bad nightmare. You are with me each and every second of the day and never forgotten. I hold you close to my heart and play your voice messages just to hear your voice. I look forward to the day God takes me home to be with you and we can spend eternity together never to be apart again. I love you Paul with all my heart and soul and send you lots of hugs and kisses. Love you forever -n- always, your wife, Margaret.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Wednesday, August 24, 2022
Hey Good Lookin, today marks 8 months since you left me. Today was an extremely difficult day for me, thinking of you and trying still to make sense of what happened to you and how this could have happened so fast. I don't care how much time passes by I will never be able to make sense of what happened to you and I will never be able to accept what you went through and how life for us both ended. I miss you terribly and so heart broken over you being gone. We have been together all through high school, college and raising 2 kids a total of 50 years together so you can imagine how unbelievably difficult it is for me to let go, never going to happen. I tried talking to my sister and the whole time I cried and blamed myself for not doing all that I could to save you or how I could have been so blind to what you were going through and never once did you confide in me what you were feeling. I live with guilt every day and blame myself for not knowing you were having heart problems, but you didn't confide in me enough to share your pain. You had to know that we would have been at the hospital much sooner and maybe, just maybe you would still be here with me. Now I must try and continue living without you, nothing I could have ever dreamed our lives would turn out like this. You are my heart and soul and without you here with me I continue to struggle each day. Life is not fair, you were never given a second chance at life like so many others have been given. You are an incredible MAN Paul, and you have given so much of yourself to so many people, not only in the work force but in your daily life and have touched their lives with your heart. I miss your smile, I miss the twinkle in your eyes when you look at me and I desperately miss you. Life is so empty without you here but I keep you alive in my life every second of every day. I keep you in my prayers, I talk to you and I talk to GOD and I ask you Paul to wait for me and I look forward to the day I can take your hand in my hand and walk with you through eternity never to be away from you again. I love you Paul with ALL my HEART and ALL my SOUL. Love you, your loving wife, Margaret. I will always hold you very close to my heart. All my Hugs and kisses. I love you Paul and miss you so much. Anika and Sloan miss you lots.
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Margaret Skidmdore posted a condolence
Thursday, August 18, 2022
Hey Good Lookin, it's me again, your loving wife. I would say how long you have been gone, but what's the point, all the days just seem to blend into one. Each day for me is quite painful because you are not here with me. I look forward to your phone calls but they don't come and me and the girls still wait in the yard just about the time you drive up from work, but you don't come. I know the girls feel my pain and I see the pain in them as they continue to look for you. People have said with time the pain becomes bearable, but I tell them each day you are gone feels like the first day. I have lost my best friend, I have lost me because without you, I feel as though I'm just existing with no meaning or purpose and nothing to look forward to You, Paul, were my world, my future because of your strength I was able to succeed and now I feel stuck, can't go forward and can't move on because I don't want to take another step forward without you. The emptiness is so real and the pain cuts through me like a knife, reminding me of the loss of you. I think of you every day and mostly focus on that day you left me, trying to remember every detail of your face and all your words to me. Even today, this seems so unreal like a very bad dream that it just can't be possible that you are no longer here with me. We had so much living to live, and a boat I wanted to get you. I need you to know I tried so hard to save you Paul, I would have given my life for you because you were so deserving to live. You worked so hard to take care of your family, take care of your clients even after hours you still make yourself available. You would wake up at night thinking about work and couldn't go back to sleep and stressing. How I wanted you to retire and walk away so we could enjoy each other and get a boat and be together. You were so amazing when it came to your work, so much knowledge and so stressful for you. I miss you so much and cry so much but I know that won't bring you back but it's my pain that overwhelms me with your loss. I keep you in my prayers every night and always ask God to please never let you feel pain only love and happiness. I know you are with your parents and brother but I'm not there with you. Please wait for me and know my soul is with you and forever in my heart. I love you Paul so much and will always keep you alive in my life. I love you forever and always, your loving wife, Margaret. Hugs and kisses
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Sunday, July 31, 2022
Hey Paul, just want you to know I miss you so bad and I love you so much. My life is so lonely without you but you are always in my heart and always on my mind. I miss you Paul. Love you so much your wife, always, Margaret
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Sunday, July 31, 2022
Hey good lookin, not a day goes by that I'm not thinking of you. You are always on my mind, forever in my heart, and buried in my soul. Each day I pray this is just a bad night mare but reality hits me in the face and it is what it is, the truth I must face that I'll never hold you in my arms again, never feel your kiss on my lips and never feel you and I cuddle in bed. I guess we won't be debating what we are going to have for dinner, as for us we always knew neither one of us knew what we wanted for dinner and the suggestions some how came back to tacos, our favorite meal together. I'd watch you cut up everything and I'd go behind you picking and you would always say, can't you wait for dinner? I would tell you no, I liked the way you make dinner. I'll never get to experience those moments again with you and tacos to me will never be the same without you. Wait for me in heaven, Paul, I look forward to the day we can be together again. I'm sure there are people out there who are afraid of death, but for me, I'm looking forward to the day it's my turn to go because I know I have you Paul a wonderful man in heaven, who will be waiting for me and I can't wait to take your hand and spend eternity with you. That is what keeps me getting through each day to know some day my time will come and it will be amazing just to be with you again. A love like ours doesn't come everyday but when it does come, hold on to that love with both hands and never let go because a love like Paul's and mine is out of this world, a love that fills you up inside and leaves you walking on air. Our love was made in heaven because it always felt like that when we were together. I love you Paul, with all my heart and my soul is your soul, a connection that can never be broken. Love you, your loving wife Margaret. You are always alive in my life and never forgotten. hugs and kisses always
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Margaret Skidmore posted a symbolic gesture
Sunday, July 24, 2022
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Paul, you are so beautiful to me, can't you see, you are everything I hoped for, you are everything I dreamed and needed, you are so Beautiful, to me. Paul, Thank you for making every day we had together so perfect. I love you so much always will forever n always. Your wife who loves you dearly, Margaret
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Sunday, July 24, 2022
Hey Good Lookin, yup. it's me again. Just letting you know I'm always thinking of you and will always keep you alive with me while I still walk this earth and again when we finally meet at those pearl gates and I take your hand in mine and we walk away together. That day will be a glorious day for us because we will be together for all eternity. Each day is a constant struggle for me to continue going through life without you. No more memories to be made only the daily routine of just getting through the day. If it wasn't for our pets, I would be lost and nothing to keep me going. For me, each day feels like the first day and the pain is so raw and so deep I know no matter how much time passes, the pain will never get better. It is a constant reminder of the amazing love I have for you and the admiration I felt towards you and all the happiness you brought to my life, I'll never experience that again in this lifetime. I remember us as I look at our pictures of our first date, you lived down the street from me and pretended to be interested in my brothers but really wanted to get to know me. Our first prom together, how handsome you looked as we were all dressed up. Our wedding, how we planned our wedding a year in advance just so we did not burden our parents with the financial bill and what a magical time it was listening to Father Higgins pronounce us Man and wife. How I remember crying as you kissed me because I had never known so much love and so much happiness being married to you, the most amazing man I called my husband. Being married to you I felt so loved, so much happiness and I knew I married my soul mate because I just could not believe this much love and happiness came from you who showered me with all that you had. I knew I was the luckiest woman in the world to be marrying the most amazing, most compassionate and loving man in this world. Being with you Paul, I felt like i was living a dream and never wanted to wake up because what we shared between each other was priceless. Later in life we had our son, and the look on your face when he was born at 3:39pm on a Thursday, your face lit up like a shining star, so proud to have a son and so very proud to give him your name. Then we decided on one more and you got a daughter, red hair and blue eyes and a Valentines day baby born at 4:23pm on a Saturday. You were the first to hold her and take her to be weighed, I saw her but never held her. I remember you holding her so tight in your arms and a smile that I will never forget how proud you were to have a son and now a daughter and our family was complete. So many memories that are always reminding me how truly wonderful a man you are who is dedicated to your family and an unconditional love that always showers us. You have a contagious smile that always makes me feel so safe and secure that you are always there and I'm always looking for signs from you that you are always still there for me when I need you the most, which is always. My life is so lonely and empty since you left us that I have to remind myself to keep going and continue to do the best I can so I can one day soon, I hope, be united with you. I talk to you every day Paul, and I pray everyday that your soul is in heaven with your family and at the same time, I'm sad because I can't be there with you right now, but I keep praying that someday soon, we will put our hands in each others hands and walk away together for all eternity. You are the Love of My Life Paul and I miss you so much and yes the tears do fall quite often when I think of you and our last time together. I will always honor you Paul and Always Love you with each beat of my heart and with every breath I take I take for us until I take my last breath to be with you. We have an amazing Son and an amazing Daughter who each have beautiful sons, our grandsons who will continue with your bloodline into the future. You have given our grandsons so much of your time, weekends at go carting, strawberry festivals, the fair, putt putt golf, beach, and movies. You will always live on through them as an awesome grandfather and will never be forgotten. I love you Paul so much I'm actually looking forward to the day we can be together again. Today is 8 months since you left but again, it feels as if it just happened. You will always be forever in my heart, always on my mind, and never far from my soul as we are connected forever soulmates. I love you forever -n- always, your wife, Margaret xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Friday, July 8, 2022
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Paul, i took this picture of the eagle circling around me before he decided to sit on a branch in front of me. I was crying so hard that when I looked up at him, he was looking at me. He stood so tall never moving just looking at me. After about a minute he spread his wings lifted himself up off the branch turned his head one last time in my direction and flew away. He feels my pain.
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Friday, July 8, 2022
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Hey good lookin, I've been thinking of you so much and couldn't even describe the pain I've been experiencing because unless you've gone through what I've gone through there are no words. Paul, each day is more than a struggle for me, it's a nightmare that I keep living, that moment that I heard you take your last breath. I called out your name, I hit you chest, I shook you while all the time i continued to drive hoping you would wake up or I got to the hospital, but you never responded to me. I cried, I called out your name, I shook you but you did not respond. You left me without saying goodbye without telling me you were having heart problems. All I know is you left me all alone without one word from you about your pain. Paul, i am a wreck inside and out and I'm stuck, I can't go forward I can't make any memories because you are not here with me. The girls are also in mourning over losing you, Anika and Sloan roam the house looking for you. You left us without a word and I am so lost I can't move forward. I cry just thinking of you and I'm constantly listening to your voice messages you have left me in the past. Hearing your voice and the love in your words tears my heart out and I ask God to please let me be with you how much more do I have to suffer? My life has stopped now it's just going through the motions of the day-to-day chores. I find myself praying constantly for you and I pray to God and to our creators asking them to please let me be with you, my existence has no meaning anymore. My life was surrounded by you and us fulfilling our dreams of the future. I know you are gone but it's my heart and my soul that doesn't accept it. I am angry and that word doesn't come close to how I'm really feeling about you being taken from us. I know your soul is in heaven with your mom, dad, grandparents, and even with your brother but what is killing me is that I'm not there with you. I love you so much Paul an the other day I was crying so hard that I began to shake and all of a sudden I looked up in the sky and down flew an eagle, curled around me and percent himself on a tree limb right in front of me. He stayed long enough for me to take his picture and I felt in my heart it was a message from you that I'm not alone you are close by. You are forever in my heart and soul until we are together again,I'll always love you Paul. Love you forever n always your loving wife, Margaret
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Friday, June 24, 2022
Hey good lookin, well it's been six (6) months today that you left me. It's 10:33am today and this time six months ago we were at walmart getting stocking stuffers for our grandsons. You said you were feeling better and wanted to go and then once we got home you said you were not feeling good. That was the beginning of the end of our life together. After that your health was declining and that's when you said take me to the hospital and that was when I too died. I wish I could have gone with you and we could be together now where ever that is just as long as I was with you I don't care where we ended up. Paul the tears never stop and the emotion of losing you just consumes me and I'm having a difficult time convincing me to keep going. I ask myself why keep going, there is nothing to look forward to because you are not here to share. Trying to keep everything up and going is beyond words, with you here it was easy because we did it together. Without you here, I'm hating it but this is what we have built together so there is no other place I would rather be than here, even though each day is a struggle for me. We lived a lifetime together, shared so many ups and downs, and every minute spent with you was never taken for granted, I cherished our time together and our car rides on the weekend. I cherished everything about you Paul, and couldn't wait for you to come home from work each day so we could be together. The person I was with you has vanished when you left. My heart and soul went with you and now I feel as though I am just existing going through each day and wishing it would just end my life has no purpose and yes I am angry, pissed off that you didn't tell me you were experiencing heart problems. If you had we would have been at the hospital much sooner and you would be here with me. I miss you so much Paul, it is killing me, you are my whole life, we spent 50 years together and made so many memories and weathered everything that was put in our paths and survived because we had each other to lean on. Now, I'm left alone, confused, angry, pissed off that you left me and we just celebrated our anniversary at Black Rock, a place you liked, and that evening was so perfect because you were there to celebrate us. I love you so much Paul, and I am so miserable without you here and I just hate being here without you. I will honor you always, cherish you forever, and continue to hold our love tight to my heart every day until I can be with you. You are always on my mind and forever in my heart and I carry you with me every day reminding myself of the devoted love we have for each other. I'll see you in my dreams and talk to you in my prayers and remember how beautiful your eyes looked at me when we were together. I'll love you forever -n-always and look forward to being with you, please wait for me. Love you more, your wife, Margaret, hugs and lots of kisses until we meet again.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Sunday, June 19, 2022
Happy Father's Day to my amazing husband, Paul. Hey good lookin, I woke up this morning wishing you were here to be celebrated by your children and me. Thank you for being the father of our children, you have given them so much in life and taught them the value of life and hard work. Both kids came by with their sons to honor you, dad, and to tell you in their own words what being their father means to them I see the hurt and pain in their eyes when they talk about you and how much it is killing them that you are not here. I, too, know that feeling, I feel it every day and live in that pain. You were my whole life, my purpose in life to be the best I could be for you and for us. All our dreams, all our plans for vacation this year are gone, because without you, there are no dreams. I cherish all our memories and feel so blessed for the time we had together, never long enough. Our breakfast that morning seemed so natural, just like our other mornings we went out. I wish I could have held your hand more or gave you another hug and kissed you more passionately and told you how much I loved you. I got you a Father's Day card, and yes it did take me a few minutes as you know I like to read them to make sure I can find the perfect card for you. My Husband, Paul. You're still the one for me. Paul, you are the one I love sharing all the little day-to-day things with. The one who always makes me laugh and who definitely understands me better than I do myself and like no one else. Paul, you are the one I LOVE with ALL MY HEART now and forever-n-always. Happy Father's Day to the love of my life. Thank you Paul for being an awesome and wonderful husband, one of a kind. Thank you for standing by me no matter what and showing your love in all different ways, giving me new reasons to smile. Thank you Paul for being such a great husband for pitching in at home, which you always did, and keeping me balance when life gets crazy and for always making me laugh more. Thank you Paul for being such a great man and for working so hard for your family and for loving our family and always making sure we were all ok. I am so deeply grateful that you chose me to love and honored that you and I got married and had an amazing life together and through all the ups and downs I never realized our love could be so strong and so much in love with one another that I believed we were in heaven, just the two of us. I can't wait for the day I can be reunited with you Paul and continue with you our life
together. My love for you is so deep inside of me it's killing me just being away from you, I talk to you every day and talk to you in my bedtime prayers, hopefully you can hear my voice and feel my love for you. Until we meet again Paul, I'll cherish and honor you each and every day of my life. You are the love of my life, my soul mate. Love forever -n- always, your wife, Margaret Hugs and kisses coming your way Paul.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Tuesday, June 14, 2022
Hey Good Lookin, the LOVE of MY LIFE. Not a day goes by that I don't find myself looking for you or waiting for you to call me or even walk through the door from work. Every day just seems to roll into one day, never ending. I keep you and our memories close to my heart and also in my prayers hoping for an answer but only silence. My heart and my mind won't accept that you are no longer here with me and I find myself reliving that one day that my whole world came crashing down when your only words to me were "Take me to the hospital and I'll wait for you in the truck" the last words ever spoken to me from you. The tears never leave me and the heartache is a constant reminder to me that I have lost the love of my life. Paul, each day is a constant struggle for me and the emptiness inside of me is the most unimaginable feeling a person should never have to feel. Paul, you are my whole life, my purpose for living and out of nowhere, you are gone. I honor you every day with so much love and I can only hope you can hear me when I speak to you and feel the love in my heart for you. I pray that I too will be reunited with you to hold your hand once again, never ever let you go. Life is cruel and I am thankful that time does not stand still because with each passing day I'm getting closer to you. I knew the minute I met you that we were soul mates and every day spent with you was fulfilling. Anika and Sloan are always looking for you wandering around the house and Anika still lays in front of your chair, I believe she is hoping you will walk in the room and sit down and throw the ball with her in the house. Anika still looks for your socks when in the bedroom, actually she is hunting for a piece of your clothing to take with her to her bed, so I have put a pair of your socks down by your chair and she runs to get it and keeps it with her. I guess your scent is still on it, she doesn't chew them she just lays on your socks, keeping them close to her. Every day I still, before giving them their greenies, say to them just like you did, What Day Is It? And just as if you were giving them their greenie, they sit there looking at you like they really care what day it is, thinking just give me the greenie so I can run to my bed and eat it. I continue throwing the Frisbee with anika and the ball with Sloan but they run to the gate, knowing the time that you come down the driveway from work and sit there, both of them, waiting for you. I find myself crying because every day they look for you to drive up only for me to tell them you are not coming home. Even though I show them your vehicle is in the garage, they, like me, don't accept that you are gone and we still look for you Paul. My love for you is so deep that I know I'll never love again and look forward to the day that we can be together. I'll love you forever and always, you are the love of my life, Paul. Now my journey is to be with you and I will find you and we will be together. I miss you so much, I miss our life together, I miss everything about you Paul and it hurts that you are not here with me. I think of you every day and find myself wanting to call you to tell you things that are happening but I may not be able to call you, but I do pray and ask that you hear me. On some of my worst days, and they seem to be on a daily basis, I walk outside and find myself crying because I miss you so much, and all of a sudden there appears a red cardinal just chirping away in a tree across the yard, close enough for me to see it. I believe the angels are sending me a sign to tell me you are still with me and that you are close to me. I hold that belief close to my heart because I need to believe you are still with me and you can feel my pain. I just wanted you to know that you are always on my mind, always in my heart, and I cherish every thought, every moment we were together and look forward to the day we can be together. I Love you Paul, forever -n- always, your wife, Margaret. hugs and kisses
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Saturday, May 28, 2022
Hey good lookin, I'm writing you a day after my birthday with an extremely heavy heart. You see on my birthday it's customary that you make my birthday cake because that's the only gift I ask for from you. You always put so much love into making me a cake that I so look forward to my birthday, and not because I'm another year older but because of you Paul, you put so much love into my birthday. Every day with you was a gift from heaven that I never took for granite. Now I'm afraid what my future looks like without you. Paul, I say this a million times a day but I dearly miss you and feel so lost without you here. Several times a day I get the urge to call you at work just to see how your day is going and to tell you I love you. I can't even begin to pick up the pieces of my heart because my life is so shattered and the pieces of my heart are scattered all over hell for the loss of my husband, probably will never be put back together and I know I'll never be whole again. So my birthday once again was alone no kids to lean on and quite empty. My good friend and her husband took me out for a nice dinner all the while in tears because all I wanted was to be with my husband. A person never realizes just how empty their lives can be when you lose a spouse and all of a sudden what was once normal has turned into an ever lastiy nightmare. My husband the love of my life, s a very compassionate, loving, generous, selfless, adoring husband. Paul, you will forever always be with me and I'll always honor the man you are and be thankful that you chose me to love and chose me to spend our life together. I continue to look forward to the day we can be together again and I'll take your hand and never let you go. I love you Paul with all my heart and soul. Hugs and kisses, your loving wife, Margaret forever n always
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Tuesday, May 24, 2022
Hey Good Lookin, today is a heart wrenching day for me because today marks 5 months that you left me. I pray every day sometimes 3 and 4 times a day and at night before I go to sleep hoping you can hear my heart speak to you telling you how much I love you and how much I miss you. Every day is a journey for me sometimes I get so afraid of the not knowing what lies ahead of me without you in my life. The days are lonely and I find myself wanting to pick up the phone to call you and see how your day is going or to ask if you want coffee when you get home. I know this doesn't make sense, but I feel close to you never letting that feeling disappear. Everything you and I have worked for is here but you are not here to enjoy what your hard work has paid for and I just can't seem to find any joy in anything because you are not here. I spent Mother's Day by my self re-reading the cards you once gave me on Mother's Day and the notes you would write in them are so precious and dear to me because you wrote from your heart. Every day as I pray to you and to God, I pray you can hear my voice and feel my heart hurting for you and wishing you were here with me. Sometimes I feel that you are with me but only for a short period of time. I relive that day you left me and remember every detail from beginning to end and it still feels like a dream and I wish to God I wake up and you are here with me. Please always remember the love I have for you in my heart and soul and I look forward to the day God calls me home and I can be reunited with you and take you hand and never let you go. You didn't deserve to go this way. The hardest part for me was I didn't get a chance to kiss you goodby or tell you how much I loved you and beg you to fight and not leave me. I tried with all my heart to save you Paul, but you left me without ever telling me or letting me know you were having problems with your heart. I am so angry I could just scream my head off because you tried to hid this from me thinking it was nothing but in the end it was everything. I'll always love you Paul, and will always honor you and never please forget us and the love we share. Thank you for the love you gave me, thank you for always being there for me and thank you for always being YOU. Love you forever -n- always your wife, Margaret. Hugs and kisses
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Sunday, April 24, 2022
Hey good lookin, it would not be fair of me not to include your anniversary card you gave me and what a beautiful card you chose for me, it reads: YOU are My Best Friend, My Love, My Wife. You know when I can use a laugh, a sounding board, or a reminder that you believe and trust in me. And your smile, your kiss, and your touch makes everything softer and sweeter in my world. You don't even have to try to be gentle and understanding. That's just the kind of wife I need. You're beautiful through and through, and every single day, I love you for it. Happy Anniversary, Love You with All My Heart, Your Loving Husband, Paul. The most beautiful, moving card, never realizing it would be my last card from you, I will forever cherish it and your words. It tears my heart up and burns my soul knowing I'll never hold you or kiss you again but always feel that pit in my stomach aching for you to be here with me and missing you so damn much. Until we are together again, I'll keep you close to my heart and send you kisses always. Love forever -n- always, your wife, Margaret
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Sunday, April 24, 2022
Hey good lookin, always thinking of you and your contagious smile and missing you so much. Today, marks 4 months since you left us and now my life is so empty without you here. Paul, every time our eyes met I get this feeling inside me sometimes it's almost more than I can take. I can feel how much you love me Paul when you touch me and it always blows me away the tenderness you possess when we touch. I've never felt this close to anyone or anything, I can feel you thoughts, I can dream your dreams I don't know why you do what you do but I love you so much for all you do because I'm so in love with you and each day spent with you just keeps getting better. My one and only wish in life when I first met you and fell madly in love with you was for us to spend the rest of our lives together and you by my side and me by your side forever -n- always. With each and every little moment with you I now know what heaven feels like and I am totally amazed and in awe of you. The smell of your skin; the taste of your kisses; and the security of your hugs brings me closer to heaven like i've never felt inside until you showed me your heart and soul and loved me unconditionally and supported us through all the ups and downs and we came out stronger as one. That is why our anniversary card I picked out for you reads: Paul, for the Man I love, nothing makes me happier or more sure of my place in this world than being your WIFE and sharing this wonderful life with YOU. Sometimes I wonder what my world would be like without you at the center of it and (Now I know what that feeling is like). I don't know how I'd get by without your love, your support, or the many thoughtful things YOU always do for me.. YOU are the strong and steady presence that I always count on. YOU bring me more happiness and joy than I could have ever hoped for. And I wanted YOU to know that I will always be grateful, from the bottom of my heart, for YOU and YOUR LOVE. To my amazing husband, thank you for loving me, thank you for YOU. Love forever -n- always Margaret, your loving wife. Never in a million years did I ever think I would lose the love of my life in such as sudden and shocking way the way I lost Paul christmas eve. I am so in shock at his passing I just can't accept him being gone. We talked about us going together because neither one of us wanted to be left behind without the other and here I am without the love of my life, Paul. I will always honor you and love you until we are together again. Please wait for me, please never forget us, and please never leave me, I need you here with me. I love you Paul and miss you so very much every second of every minute of every day. Love your wife, Margaret
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Monday, April 18, 2022
Paul, I woke up this morning feeling so alone and afraid because you are not here with me. Paul, each day has turned into a struggle for me and when something happens in my daily life you're the one I want to share it with but now, it's only in my prayers that I share my most deepest heartfelt feelings with you and the tears just flow. You have touched my heart and soul like I've never known existed with your love, kindness, and your hugs and kisses. Paul, you and I always talked about being together for a lifetime but you left me and I'm here wondering which direction to go in. Without you here to share my ups and downs life for me has no meaning and no purpose. All that we accomplished together was for our future and now I don't want to face the future without you. YOU are and will always be the Love of MY Life, it's supposed to be our time and I'm thinking of all the reasons I'm so glad YOU were born; from the Love that fills my heart, to the happiness I'd never have knows without you. Paul, I'm thinking of your smile and the amazing feeling I get when I look deep in your eyes and how I know without a doubt that YOU and I were meant to be. Paul, I'm thinking of how important every day with you was a gift and a blessing as those days were always perfect, just as long as we were together nothing could rain on our parade. I honor you for all eternity and how wonderful YOU are and to PROMISE YOU I'll do everything I can to help make YOUR dreams come true because I LOVE YOU SO MUCH today, tomorrow, and forever n always. I look forward to the time and place I can hold you in my arms again and I'll never let you go, I'll walk by your side and the sun will shine and the rainbows will be abundant and the birds will sing with joy because we are together again. Please don't forget us; Please wait for me, and Please don't leave me, I need you with me. Love you forever n always, your loving wife, Margaret. You are the beat of my heart and with every breath I take; I take for us. I LOVE YOU PAUL and miss you so much I'll never let you go. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Sunday, April 17, 2022
Happy Easter to My Husband, Paul, the love of my life. Another holiday without you by my side but you are forever in my heart and soul always with me. Another holiday without one of your wonderful cards that it only takes you less than a minute to pick out the MOST perfect card that expresses you inner most feelings for me which always brings tears to my eyes. My Easter card for you Paul reads:
Paul, My Husband, you're a blessing to me. Nothing means more to me than OUR LOVE, OUR HOME, OUR FAMILY. It's the little things WE do TOGETHER...the day-to-day moments that add up to make life satisfying, meaningful, and good. You are the light of my life, without you, life means nothing, Thank You for Loving Me; Thank You for always being there for Me; Thank you for always being YOU, YOU are and always will be the LOVE of MY LIFE, Thank You for all that YOU do. Paul, that's what makes OUR Marriage so rich and MY LOVE for YOU so DEEP. I'm SOOOO glad WE chose EACH OTHER. Happy Easter With All My LOVE. I miss you every second of every minute and I look forward to the day I can finally hold YOUR HAND again and NEVER let YOU go but only to walk through eternity with YOU by my side. Your Loving WIFE, forever n always, your WIFE Margaret.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Saturday, April 2, 2022
Hey good lookin, missing you so much. Paul, people are always asking me how I'm doing and they still get the same reply, devastated. They ask but they don't hear me because if they did they would know what devastated means. Let me tell you what it feels like being devastated. It's losing the love of your life, a dear loved one, family or friend and even a pet, but worse it's a black hole that we have fallen into and can't find our way out because the destruction to ones self is permanent and no matter how much time passes it feels like today and even if it's tomorrow it will always be today that hits us the hardest. Remember tomorrow is always today never a tomorrow. Experiencing a devastation is permanent it's where the heart is shredded into pieces and your soul has just left your body, it's an out of body experience where reality no longer exists and all we have are memories of what our life once was and never will be again. Every day since my amazing husband left this world, left me, I have stopped living and just go through the motions of life, floating through time never experiencing joy, happiness, only pain, sorrow and quite a bit of hate and anger directed to the gods and/or creators for taking an exceptional man, my husband, and never giving him the option for a second chance in life but to abruptly end his and all the while destroying his loved ones left behind to try and make sense of what just happened. I was with Paul during his final moments when he walked out of the bedroom and said take me to the hospital, and as he walked toward the garage, his only words to me were "I'll wait for you in the truck". We all say to ourselves if we knew then what we know now how would I have reacted???? I would have hugged my husband and told him I love you so much and I'm right here with you and kissed him. Instead I got behind the wheel of the truck and focused on just getting him to the hospital and then it happened, he went into being unconscious and I did everything to wake him up and nothing. I write this with the tears falling down my cheeks and the heaviness on my heart as I type this so you all will know the depth of my love for my husband and how deeply I miss him. Yes, my life has stopped and my purpose to keep going is gone. Just know when you lose a loved one just know they are devastated beyond words and have lost all sense of reality and like me, I'm trying to hold on to you Paul, never to let you go and beg you to please stay with me and not leave me, Please wait for me and don't forget us. A journal is being put together by me of our life together from the time we met to the day I lost you it covers over 50 years of our life together and a recorder so they can remember your voice, I added some of your messages you left for me and my voice so they will remember what we sounded like as their parents and grandparents to our 6 grandsons. We have a beautiful story of US and I want to share it with our future, son and daughter and grandsons. Life doesn't hand out a bed of roses, you have to be in a relationship for the long haul and we succeeded and in the end we found what true love and happiness really felt like, it was US. I too died when you left us and all I have is memories and pictures to remember US. Thank you Paul for loving me and thank you Paul for always being there for me and for our family. You are the very best part of me and I look forward to the day we can hold each others hand and only this time, never let go. Where you go I go. Each day becomes harder and harder and I look for you and wait for your phone call to say you are on your way home and put the coffee on. So yes, I'll always be devastated with losing you and no one and no amount of time will take that feeling away from me, we were one not two people, but we became one. I love you Paul with all my heart and soul and please don't leave me, wait for me. Love you forever n always, your wife, Margaret.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Thursday, March 24, 2022
Hey good lookin, it's me again, your wife. Today is 3 months since you left us and everyday feels like the first day. No matter how much time goes by, it still doesn't feel real. One minute you and I are having breakfast together and the next moment my life has stopped. I'm tired of people telling me it takes time to heal, but no amount of time will heal the loss I am feeling in my heart and soul for you. A very dark and lonely place without you and I'm planted right here for the rest of my life, or until I can be with you. You are my soul mate, the love of my life and nothing and no one and not even time will ever change my life or the depth of my love for you is so deep inside of me for you. Life is not what it once was and now I must face everyday without you in my life. Unless you have lost a loved one it is too hard for anyone to imagine the feeling that overtakes you and leaves you helpless and uncaring about what used to matter. Every day I honor my husband, Paul, and just seem to go through the process of surviving. If we are to believe we have gods or creators then why create a miracle, a human life, only to destroy that miracle and those who have loved that life and create devastation for those who are left behind, torn up inside and out missing their loved one. I am one of those who love my husband, Paul so much that I can't and I don't want to imagine my life without him, every day the pain in my heart grows and the tears have no ending. I miss you so much and will continue to always keep you alive in my life and those who know you. My love for you will always shine through and I look forward to the day we can be together, that is what keeps me going just knowing I will be with you again. I love you Paul and miss you so much, please don't leave me, please stay with me, and please please don't forget us. Many hugs and many kisses as I hold you close to my heart telling you I love you over and over again and thank you for loving me. Love you forever n always, your wife, Margaret.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Saturday, March 12, 2022
Hey Good Lookin, it's been 2 months and 2 weeks since you left us, it feels like it just happened because the pain cuts through me like fire running wild in me. I knew from the first time we met, August of 1970, that we were soul mates, couldn't explain the feeling because is was just 15, but it was an overwhelming feeling inside of me for you. You and I are soul mates and you had my soul and I had your soul and when you passed, I passed with you. Your soul lives inside of me and you get to see what life is without you through my eyes. I feel you all around me and I want you to know I felt you the other night. The days along with the nights are the worst for me, all our hopes and dreams for our future went with you when you left us. This particular day was like my heart and soul was being torn out of me from the inside out. I carried that feeling with me to bed and after saying my prayers and talking and crying to you I guess it was more than I could take and eventually slept. During the early morning I remember getting this tight hug with arms wrapped around me, just like you used to do when you would roll over in the night and give me a hug and a kiss. I remember feeling how tight this hug was because I actually felt your arms around me holding me tight, like you never wanted to let me go. I immediately woke up wondering who was in my bed and as I looked over to your side of the bed, I noticed your pillow was at the bottom of the bed and your covers were pulled back and I realized you were not here but you were here holding me tight like you used to do. Since you have been gone, I have blamed God for not helping you live and have lost my faith but you brought my faith back to me that very moment with your hug, letting me know you have not left me but you are still with me until it's my time to go and we will go together. We promised each other that many times, I would always say to you don't leave me behind take me with you and let's go together, just like the movie Notebook. My heart, my soul belongs to you and you alone and life for me will once begin when we are together again. If I have to walk through fire or die some horrible death just to be with you, I'm there. I love you Paul more than life and want desperately to be with you, please wait for me, please don't forget us, and please don't go. I want to hold your hand and walk through eternity with you by my side. I adore you and everything about you. I wake up each morning and lift the cover of your deoderant just to remember that smell on you. My purpose in life has stopped and I no longer have dreams and pray each night before falling asleep as I hold your picture close to my heart hoping you can feel me and hear me asking you to please don't leave me. Nothing in this life matters more to me than being with you for all eternity. Until any of you (who are reading this) have walked in my footsteps you can't possibly understand not only what I'm saying but what I'm going through and I can only hope you are brave enough to share you feelings with others so they may understand the passing of a loved one and the affects it has on the one who is left behind. I have loved my husband, Paul, seems like all my life, I will never let him go and I will continue to HONOR my husband, Paul, until I take my last breath and can be united with my husband, Paul, and then, and only then will you see the rainbow displayed across the heavens and happiness once again will fill our lives. Until we are together again Paul, I'll always love, cherish, HONOR, and forever be grateful that you chose to love me and have me as your wife. Hugs and kisses Paul, forever n always, your Wife, Margaret
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Saturday, February 26, 2022
Hey good lookin, today was another hard day for me, thinking about the last time I saw you. I held you tightly in my arms crying and begging you not to leave me but you were on a journey that I could not be with you. My life stopped at that moment and now I feel as though I'm existing without purpose. Paul, for all those times YOU'VE stood by ME, for all the truth that YOU made ME see, FOR ALL THE JOY YOU brought to MY life, for all the wrong that YOU'VE made right, FOR EVERY DREAM YOU'VE made come true for me, for all the LOVE I've found in YOU, I'm grateful for everything Paul, YOU'RE THE ONE WHO HELD ME UP NEVER, ever let me fall; YOU'RE the ONE who saw ME through, through it all. YOU were my strength when I was weak; YOU were my voice when I couldn't speak; YOU were my eyes when I couldn't see; YOU saw the best there was in ME; lifting ME up when I couldn't reach; YOU gave me FAITH cause you believed in ME; I'm everything I am because YOU LOVED ME; YOU gave ME wings to make me fly; YOU touched my hand I could touch the sky; I lost my faith you brought it back to me; YOU said no star was out of reach; YOU stood by ME and I stood tall; I had YOUR LOVE I had it all; I'm grateful for each day YOU gave ME; PAUL I don't know that much but I know this much is true the LOVE WE HAVE FOR EACH OTHER; I was blessed because I was LOVED by YOU; YOU were always there for ME; Your tender ARMS carried ME, YOU were the light in the dark, shining YOUR LOVE into MY LIFE; YOU'VE been MY INSPIRATION, YOU were MY truth, MY WORLD is such a better place BECAUSE OF YOU, and the LOVE YOU GAVE ME, the love of my life. I'll love YOU forever n Always until we are together again I keep you close to my heart and you are always in my prayers. Love your wife, Margaret forever in my Heart
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Thursday, February 24, 2022
Hey good lookin, it's me again, thinking of you and wishing you were here for me to talk to and tell you how my day was going, not good. Today is 2 months that you took the journey to heaven without me and that's the day my life stopped. Seeing you so lifeless and me screaming your name and shaking you thinking to myself that you passed out only to realize you left me. My love for you is endless and so painful because you are not here for me to hug you or get one of your many kisses and to tell you I'm glad you are home safely from work. The days all seem to run together and I find myself wanting to pickup the phone to call you and see how your day is going but I stop myself knowing you will not answer. I walk the yard daily with our dogs looking up to heaven and I begin talking to you asking can you hear me, can you feel my heart how much it hurts and the tears just roll down my face uncontrollable and I ask god to hear my plea and please let me see a sign that my husband is in heaven and knows how much I'm hurting without him. Paul we are soulmates from the first time we met I knew you were the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with and how proud I am to be your wife and be by your side, and yes, I will always feel that way about you and us, until we are reunited again and I take your hand and never let you go, where you go I go. Time does not heal and the pain is incredible and sometimes I can't stop crying, knowing you will never be in my arms again. The girls look for you every day and wait by the gate around the time you come home, but you never show up and they sit there and pace back and forth looking for you and Anika starts here crying and barking looking for you as she does when you are late coming home. I sleep with your picture, the picture of you I took that morning when we had breakfast on that frightful day, and I say my prayers and ask god to please let you know how much I love you and I get angry at god for taking you away from me and our life. So many awful people running around in this world doing bad things and they get to live and you who is the most amazing man god ever created, got takes you and leaves me behind to suffer life without you. YES I AM ANGRY AT GOD for taking you from me and destroying our life and our plans to enjoy life together. Paul, I look forward to the day that I am worthy enough for god to let me come home and be with you, then I will truly be complete and be with you, the love of my life. Life goes on for everyone but for me my life ended the day your life ended. I just go through the motions of living but want to be with you, Paul. I keep you in my prayers everyday and every night asking god to please take care of you and to tell you that you are alive in my heart and I am incomplete without you and off balance. I look for signs every day that you are with me but they don't come but I will never give up and will continue to look for those signs that you hear me and know the love I have for you. Until we meet again Paul, I keep you close to my heart and with every breath I take, I take for us. Love you forever n always, your wife, Margaret (2/24/22)
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Monday, February 14, 2022
To my amazing husband, Paul. Happy Valentines Day Paul and yes it took me a little longer finding the perfect card for you but I found one that expressed my heart and love for you. Unlike you, you can walk in and find the perfect card for me within a minute, always you amaze me. It's been 1month and 3weeks that you made that journey to heaven without me. My heart is heavy and broken and will never mend until we can be reunited. Each day feels like the first day overwhelmed by anger and heartache and at times I'm suffocating and unable to breathe praying to god that he takes me home to be with you. My life is so empty and meaningless without you. Nothing I do and nothing anyone can say can take away the pain, heartache, loneliness, and anger I'm feeling every day since that most terrifying day. I relive that day constantly and remember the look on your face as you left me and the life went out of me as I screamed your name with tears running down my face begging you not to leave me and com back to me. You are my hero and I thank you for loving me. I look forward to the day I will be with you again holding your hand and telling you we will never be apart again, forever n always. Today we celebrate our daughter's birthday a valentines day baby born in wilmington, nc. You were so happy holding her after she was born and excited to have a daughter. You were surrounded by brothers and now you have a daughter. I saw the enormous amount of love in your eyes as you held your daughter, now our family was complete with a son and now a daughter. Paul, you may not be here in human form but our love and devotion for you will always keep you alive in our lives. Until god lets me come home to you, I will cherish, honor, and love you forever n always and keep you alive each and every day until we are reunited.. You are every beat of my heart and every breath I take, thank you for always being there for us and thank you for always loving me. Love forever n always, your wife, Margaret. I will always love you ❤
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Friday, February 4, 2022
To the love of my life, my husband, Paul. Today, February 4, 2022, it has now been 6 weeks that you were taken from us. Not a day goes by that I don't feel the loss of you. The tears automatically fall when I think of you and the sharp pain in my heart feels like my heart is being torn to pieces with your loss. I miss you so much and read all the cards we sent to each other over the years and feeling the great love we have shared. I'm terribly angry at god for taking you and destroying our lives. We had so much more to live for and now my life has stopped..God, you took my best friend, the love of my life, my soul mate, my everything in this world and destroyed my life. Paul, I'll always love and cherish you with all my heart and honor you every day of my life until the day comes when we can be reunited. Forever in my heart and soul. I love you Paul and miss you everyday. Love you always, Margaret, your loving wife.
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 25, 2022
To my wonderful husband, Paul. Today marks 1 month and 2 days that you left me and the pain is so unbearable that all I do is cry thinking of you. My life is so lonely without you in it. I wait for your phone call every morning telling me you made it to work safely and again at lunch telling me lunch was ok but looking forward to us having dinner together. Then your last call telling me you are on your way home and I say please drive careful. Our two sheperds wait by the gate looking for you to come home and how they get so excited and cry when they see you, happy that you are home. Now they sit there looking for you to drive down the driveway but you just don't come home. I pray every night and go to church on Sunday just so I can tell god he took you too soon from us because our lives have stoped living. For me god you took my soul mate, the love of my life. You took my heart and soul and now I'm just going through the motion of just existing without any meaning. I look to the day I can be reunited with my husband and I ask that no one sheds any tears but feel happy for me because I will be with the love of my life, my husbsnd, Paul who I love so very much. He is my world and taken away from me before his time. We still had a lifetime together. Hey good lookin, I'll love you forever n always, your loving and devoted wife, Margaret. Until we can be together I will always honor you
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Margaret Skidmore posted a condolence
Saturday, January 8, 2022
To the love of my life, my husband Paul. We have been together 50 years and yet it wasn't long enough, we still had alot of living to live. Thank you for loving me and being my best friend. My heart shattered when you left me and my life has stopped. My life will never be the same because you are not here with me. There is an emptiness in my heart that cannot be filled, I love you so much Paul, the tears don't stop falling. I wish you could come home and be with us but I know you are in heaven looking over us. You are always in my heart and on my mind. Until we are reunited I'll love you forever and always and i will honor you until we meet again. I miss you so much Paul and this feels like the worst kind of nightmare and I wish I could just wake up and you be here with us. I'll love you forever and always, your loving wife, Margaret.
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Thursday, December 30, 2021
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I am saddened that i lost a friend and mentor. He was great guy and a great professional. I got lucky to work with him and become a friend. I learned a lot from Paul, for that i am grateful. I will miss him.
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Ronnie Skidmore and family planted a tree in memory of Paul Skidmore Jr.
Thursday, December 30, 2021
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Sacha Nash posted a condolence
Thursday, December 30, 2021
We were all shocked about Uncle Paul's sudden passing and are grieving with you all during this time. We so wanted to be there with you today. I will be remembering our fun trip to Kentucky today where we had a blast Go-Kart racing together. He was very competitive ( and so was I) and surprisingly good at spinning me out. I remember going over one of the landscaped burms and looking at the attendant working to see if we were going to get in trouble. He just laughed and waved us on! Meanwhile, all I could see was Uncle Paul's tail lights and hear him hooting. Nothing like a little racing to get a Hayden's blood going! I wish we had more time to make more of these fun memories. Please do not hesitate to reach out if you all need anything at all.
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Joe Nygard posted a condolence
Thursday, December 30, 2021
Very sorry to hear of Coach’s passing. He was my first baseball coach and always enjoyed being on his teams over the years. I know he will be missed as he was an influence in many lives. I pray for peace and comfort for those who knew him and loved him.
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Wednesday, December 29, 2021
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We will always keep the memories shared with Paul so long ago close to our hearts. Paul will always be in our prayers and deeply missed.
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Wednesday, December 29, 2021
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It comes with great sadness that I write these thoughts. I have known Paul for almost 50 years. We worked together during a great number of those years. I first trained him as an engineering draftsman and watched him grow professionally through his part time work and attendance at USF's School of Engineering. I remember when he got his professional engineering license; he was very proud of that, as he should. I remember his children being born and growing up, and Paul's involvement in their activities. He was a good husband, father and professional engineer. I will surely miss him. Godspeed Paul E. Skidmore, P.E.
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Tuesday, December 28, 2021
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Paul was always such a sweet, kind, and funny guy I was happy to know through my stepdad Wayne. My thoughts are with all the Skidmore’s and those who loved Paul. ♥️
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